It has been three months since I got out of the hospital. On those three months albeit difficult, I have been used to a slower pace in how my days and my weeks and my months go by. More time on the slow so I can recover fast and to use the slow time to heal.
I have gotten more activities back into my normal as per doctor’s advise. He said, “Physical wounds will heal faster but BRAIN inside needs more time (to heal).” No food restrictions unless I have intolerances and allergies. No restrictions on physical activities so long as those are done gradually and in the right progression. More time spent on things I have always planned for but no “time” for.
These made me realize that I have to get used to not feel guilty because I am resting, recharging, and putting myself first so I can be back to a stronger version of “me.” I have to be at peace on how I use this time.
I also have come to terms that time is of the essence. We should spend it on those we care for, and those that matter to us. Sometimes, it takes second chances (or more) to make it right. And this second chance I got, I need to spend wisely – still do the BEST I could not just for me but for those who has not been as lucky.
The “goodbyes” I have seen over the last few weeks showed me that at the end of the day, it is all about the breath. How we inhale the good. How we exhale the bad. How we manage the cycle – the cycle of breathe ins and outs that connect E V E R Y moment in our lives. And that connects us with others. It is something we often take for granted. We see when we feel stress, we breathe deeply. When we feel worried, we breathe out. When we are in love, we breathe in and out when we feel our hearts are skipping a beat or when its beating faster than usual. When we need courage or need to be brave, we breathe in to get ready so we can make the right decisions.
Lastly, as always, family always endures – the family I have now and those friends who has been like a family to me. I am grateful for them for supporting me unconditionally in my healing and recovery. And for giving me space to try and get back on my feet in my own pace. They remind me especially during those times I try to get on my “old” and faster pace. They remind me that I need to get back GRADUALLY and not to do everything all at once. And yes, the reminder, “It is okay to slow down.”
Like I said in some previous posts, maybe in it ALL, we only need to do the essential. SAVOR life and make it as SIMPLE as breathing. Or maybe realize and chase what takes our breath away. Accept that the need NOW is to slowdown and GRADUALLY return to normal. And remember that there are people around us who generally care and love us. Maybe they are not good in expressing it but we are expecting. Or they might be showing it but we are not looking.
And everyday I wake up, God shows HIS goodness for letting me breathe in and out. I continue to be thankful and grateful.
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