The last few weeks have been very challenging. Many moments I felt stuck and felt like I hit a wall. Was very challenging to stay focused and look into the positive side of things. I was relying on mental discipline to get through and jump through the perceived challenges.

And the usual response I was accustomed to have – solve the problem. But I didn’t do this in this round.

What I did instead – Took the time to journey within. Try to understand what’s causing it and why it was eating me up. Recognize the emotions it brings and be brave enough to face it, learn to welcome it, accept it till we understand the depth and the core where it was coming from. Surrender to the moment. Learn to be patient. Maybe learn to be more patient. Let time do the teaching and let the lessons come when we are ready for it.

Today, I woke up feeling better. The mind seems calmer and more open. Less defenses and more receptive.

And maybe that is what we need. Maybe sometimes, we all need that – learn to deliberately stop. Let the mud settle to clear up the water. Choose rest. Choose stillness. Not doing can be productive especially if that means collecting ourselves in silence. Learn to choose to stop so we can keep and stay going!

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Post yoga photo. Was slow and a little absent-minded today. Too many thoughts again in my head. Nothing yoga can fix!

Resonating thoughts today: RECEIVING AND GIVING.

I have always thought that time is the best gift of all. We give time to those we think are worth it and to those activity that makes us feel great. But sometimes, we get accustomed to just giving and not being mindful about what we allow to receive or vice versa.

Like in yoga asanas, there is always a pose and a counterpose. Every action trigger a reaction. Every action we decide on will merit a consequence. That is the beauty of the decisions we deliberately make. We can in some ways influence the counter action.

However, there are times that we seemingly will not have the control on everything. That there are moments in our lives we just got to trust the timing of things: who we meet along the way, who goes after a while and who stays. In all these we give everything the chance to be as is and appreciate the beauty of what is. We all learn in this cycle.

The point is we remain open, trust the right timings in our lives and decide on those we can. With hope and intent, live the lives we choose for ourselves and we let others to do the same. Give. Accept. Receive what comes our way and understand the lessons it brings. And always use it in peace and ensure we accept it as we give from a place that is full of love.

Stay safe and dry. Let today be another opportunity to spread good and better.

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Taken around 8:12pm. Evening light show of the sky.

Last year, this was the day I started going through vasospasm.

Google defines this as “sudden constriction of a blood vessel, reducing its diameter and flow rate.” I started losing my ability to speak and my right arm started losing mobility. Couldn’t talk and mutter a word. My right arm was just a dead appendage. It had no “feeling” and it was useless. The nurses had to remove the syringe connected to a dextrose to keep me hydrated. My right arm was just swollen and I was just carrying it around. And all I could do was just make sounds through grunting.

It was a scary period because no one can assure me and my parents when I will be back to “normal.” No doctor can assure us of anything and was just mentioning that it depends on my body when I will be “back.”

Fast forward to today, my ability to speak is back. My right arm is back to being my dominant hand. I can now run and do yoga back to doing asanas that tones the once dead muscles from last year. I am now fully functioning. Thriving. Truly thankful and grateful to God’s grace and blessings. We go through hardships and trials. And sometimes we feel like we had hit a wall. Last year, I was full of worry and anger as I didn’t understand why I was going through the so far lowest point of my life. And then we wait.

Let time heal us. Listen to the body and what is being taught to us at that moment. Then we survive to tell our story in the hope it gives people hope. And to show that in hardships we experience growth.

In this time of uncertainty, this experience reminds me, we are here for a purpose. God is good. Family is a treasure. And it takes a little and not a lot to really make this life happy, meaningful and fulfilling.

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